Stubbornly unadjusted

You could have an adjustment disorder. That is true. I might as well aspired it myself. but why somebody should not try to conform to the new normal? why should ever somebody makes every stage of life purposefully harder for themselves? Why I've been failing to accept detachments, distances, and the consequences of my decisions?

Am I experiencing attachment for the very first time? that so?

it could be possible that it is just another 'stage' in my life, without any more description. not to say it's hard or the hardest, as I never know what I step into in the future, nor can remember the hardships of the past. one thing I am sure of, is that it is increasingly getting challenging.

I reckon these days will end; these cold lonely nights; this soulless Pooria. There shall come a day in which I feel something ephermal; could be joy, could be sorrow for not finding people, places, and sensations as pleasing as before. before that day comes, keep pushing forward.